Sunday, May 11, 2008

Mother's Day 2008

It's my first Mother's Day, and it is affecting me more than I thought. (I have a little bit of a hard time being vulnerable in "public"--like in a blog!--so bear with me...) I always knew I would love being a mother, but I just didn't understand how much. I didn't truly understand what it meant to love so much it hurts. Everything about being a mother has, and is, making me a better person. I am deeply grateful for the beautiful gift of my baby girl. A friend sent me this poem for Mother's Day...every line in the poem so perfectly describes how I feel...

Before I was a Mom, I never tripped over toys or forgot words to a lullaby.
I didn't worry whether or not my plants were poisonous.
I never thought about immunizations.
Before I was a Mom - I had never been puked on, pooped on, chewed on, peed on.
I had complete control of my mind and my thoughts.
I slept all night.
Before I was a Mom, I never held down a screaming child so doctors could do tests, or give shots.
I never looked into teary eyes and cried.
I never got gloriously happy over a simple grin.
I never sat up late hours at night watching a baby sleep.
Before I was a Mom, I never held a sleeping baby just because I didn't want to put him down.
I never felt my heart break into a million pieces when I couldn't stop the hurt.
I never knew that something so small could affect my life so much.
I never knew that I could love someone so much.
I never knew I would love being a Mom.
Before I was a Mom, I didn't know the feeling of having my heart outside my body.
I didn't know how special it could feel to feed a hungry baby.
I didn't know that bond between a mother and her child.
I didn't know that something so small could make me feel so important and happy.
Before I was a Mom, I had never gotten up in the middle of the night every 10 minutes to make sure all was okay.
I had never known the warmth, the joy, the love, the heartache,the wonderment or the satisfaction of being a Mom.
I didn't know I was capable of feeling so much, before I was a Mom.

5 comments:

Anonymous said...

I love that poem. I have read it in the past and loved it. I also never knew the joys of being a mother until I was one. I never knew I could live on such little sleep or cry because my baby was sick or hurting and I didn't know why. Thanks for sharing. Hope you have a wonderful 1st Mother's Day!! Love, Dana

Jamie said...

Isn't it so much fun being a mom? There are so many emotions connected with it....there is definitely nothing like it!

I enjoyed all your pictures so much. Payton is such an adorable baby!

Once again, I am so glad that you are doing this blog!!

Liz said...

Okay, now ya made me cry! I'm with you - mothering is the greatest privilege in the world! And I'm finding my dependence on God has to grow as I grow into my "new" (4 year old) role, too.
Love you!
Lizzy

Misty said...

That is beautiful!! Thanks for sharing...you may want to gave the color from pink though because it is hard to read. Your little family looked nice this morning :-)

Anonymous said...

Hope you had a LOVELY 1st Mother's day, Robyn! You and Payton looked BEAUTIFUL! I enjoyed talking to you tonight! I'm looking forward to next Monday!:D Love,Ruthanne